Sy Penakut??

Nak dijadikan cerita, smlm...klas tutorial sy berakhir lambat skali..nak dkt maghrib br abeh..terkocoh2 lari blk smyg asar wpon sy bknlah termsk org2 yg bleh err...paham2 la ye anda2 sekalian...

Ms klas tutorial tu, kami2 ni revise blk la psl tuberculosis..primary ke, scndary ke or miliary..kbykan waktu dr tny sy mmg berangan oleh krn dah x sabar nak blk umah...penat dh spjg ari dr pkl 9 trima sgala mcm bnda msk kpala otak..tp tba2 dtg la satu soklan ni, doctor tny.."how can miliary tuberculosis spread from the lung to distant organs all at one time??" maka kami2 yg wpon separa berangan separa tumpu ni pon ckp la "BLOOD..." tp dr tny lg..."ok, by blood, but how?haa..jwb2"...(dr. xde la ckp cam2 eh..dr sy x pandai ckp mlayu..hehe)

Sy dlm kpala otak yg hampir layu pon ckp la kpd dr sdr..bermonolog sorg2.."erm..kalo dr lung, t.b. tu spread ke pulmonary vein pas2 dia pi kat heart then affect the heart yg kemudiannya menyalurkan blood ke organ2 laen melalui systemic circulation..jdlah miliary t.b.."(ckp sorg2 pon bhs kedah gak..hohoho)

Wpon sy tau jwpn tersebut...sy hanya mendiamkan dr..sbb sy nii penakut nak ckp kuat2..(hahaha..ni kalo dgn dr ja, kalo dgn kwn2 suara mcm guruh pon ada)doktor sy tny lg..."haa..camna dia spread?? sorg cpt angkat tgn..jwb2.."(dia ckp bhs inggeris sy translate bhs melayu naa)

Suma pon diam...xmao jwb...aizah, paksu n wani yg genius dh wat mcm2 andaian...sy pon ckp la kat aizah teori sy td..dia kata xtau laa..so sy pon x brani la nak habaq kat dr jwpn tu..sy diam jaa..n trus berangan nak blk umah mkn nasi..lapaq..dr plak, dah xda sapa jwb..dia pon tlg la jwb...jwpn dia...haaa..teori sy td tu laa...wooo.bangga2...hahahaha...

Kat cni, sy bkn la nak membangga diri yg teori sy btoi tu..tp nak dijadikan crita la..penakut x penakut sy nii..dh tau jwpn tp xmao habaq..i would rather stay quiet n wait for the answers from my doctor than stand up n tell him my answer..ye, sy ngaku..sy lack of self confidence..sy xpenah yakin dgn jwpn or stiap apa yg sy bt setiap ari..

Nak masak pon tkt x sdap, tp hantam jgk msk sbb tggjwb...hehe, nak jadi org pertama or awal dlm apa2 pon sy x brani sbb nnt org tgk kita..nak jadik org las pon sy tkt jgk..nak memegang apa2 jawatan apatah lg sy tkt...haa..tgk2, penakut kan sy nii..dh lama sy berperang dgn self confidence sy neh..bt mcm2 dh nak bg yakin, tp x jadi2 jgk..sy slalu rasa insecure sbb xda konfiden tu...ssh kan??

Sy xkesah la x konfiden tu, tp kdg2 bla org amanahkan sy apa2..sy lbeh ska menolak sbb tkt nak memegang amanah tu..mslhnya, kesian la kat org2 yg harapkan sy utk pgg amanah tu...mrk2 nii ingat sy bleh diharapkan tp sy lg ska kalo org x harapkan apa2 dari sy...sy habaq awai2..sy x brani...herm, camna la nak handle..sapa2 tlg jwb sat..penin dh pkiq sorg2...

Kesimpulannya...haa, ni mslh cket, sy x penah reti wat kesimpulan sjk zmn skolah rendah n menengah lg smpai la dh msk u ni pon, so xda la kesimpulan...hohoho...

Crush...

sooooooo in love with this song..David Archuleta..enjoy aye..


I hung up
The phone last night
Something happened
For the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush
Cause the possibility
That you would ever
Feel the same way
About me
It's just too much
Just too much
Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to kno

Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really
Just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cuz im tryin tryin
to walk away
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away

Has it ever crossed
Your mind
When were hangin'
Spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance
We've gotta take
Cause I believe
That we can
Make this into
Something
That will last
Last forever
Forever
Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Aanother crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
cuz i'm tryin tryin
to walk away
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away

Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cuz im tryin tryin
to walk away
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away.

Apa Beza...

Bila sy tgk diri sy..
sy rasa laen...
laen dr kwn2..
laen2 dr adek2..
laen dr ibu bapa sy...
ada yg sama..
rambut, hidung, mata..semuanya sy ada..
itu semua sama..
tp sy msh nmpk beza...
sy xtahu apa bezanya...
ada...ada beza..
bila sy tgk kwn sy A..
dia pandai..cpt memhami...
sy laen..sy x sama mcm A...
bila sy tgk adek sy K...
adek sy pantas...pandai bergaul dan petah bicara...
sy laen...sy x sama mcm adek..
bila sy tgk mak...
pon sy rs laen..
sy xsama mcm mak..
tp ada skali, sy terfikir...
sy manusia..
sama mcm kwn sy A, adek sy K, dan mak..
jadi..apa bezanya..
sy jugak makhluk tuhan...
kita semua sama....


merepek2 saja...tgh fikir nak msk apa ari ni...aiyark, nak msk cpt..nnt suma org lapar..

Perbualan Sia2..

Hari ni terjadik la satu perbualan di antara sy n geng2 lab sy...(sia2 saja..warning awai2..)

Ai: haa...Ab, bila ko nak kawen?? taun dpn kan??kan2???...cpt la..cpt..aku nak gi..(mka pnuh excited)

Ab: entah la..wallahua'lam..

S: lorh..kawen la cpt2..aku nak gi gak..bleh wat alasan blk msia..(mencelah tanpa beri slm)

Ab: (secara tba2) eh..korg xnak kawen ke?? org kate taun 4 n ke atas sng je, rilek2..kawen jer laa..

Ai: (bertambah excited) btol2..aku pon denga cam2 gak..sape2 kawen laa...hahahaha...

Sh: (msk berbual) owh...cam2 ke?

Ai: kawen abes taun 4 tu ok la Ab...

S: eh..kawen abes taun 3 lg ok wutt..(ditujukan tuk Ab..)

Sh: ish2..S neh...

S: noooooooooooooooo....aku x mksdkan tuk aku!!!

(malangnye, Sh dh berlalu pergi tanpa smpt mndengar S berteriak...waaaa!!!!!)

ok2..wat pengetahuan suma, S adalah sy..Sh n Ab dua2 anak teruna, Ai plak anak dara mcm sy..
Sh pasti telah membuat telahan bkn2 terhdp sy bila sy ckp abes taun 3 dh bleh kawen...waaaa...bkn cdgn tuk sy nak kawen taun 3 tu..utk Ab laa....haishh..telajak perahu dh xleh undur...maka menangeslah sy...huhuhu..

Nak buang ke xnak??

Hari ini, terlintas ssuatu dlm kpala otak sy...
sy rasa nak buang la blog nii...
maleh dh nak update..
apetah lg nak baca..
tp sy ska baca blog kwn2 laen..
itu dh jadik kebiasaan dlm idup seharian..
blog mereka bes..
kakcik, aini, ede...n mcm2 org lg..
dl ms ade fs sy buang jgk..
tp br beberapa bln buang..
sy gatai tgn wat yg br..
sbbnye rndu kat kwn2..
fs satu2nye tmpt nak berhubung dgn kwn2..
yg berada nun jauh di msia sana...
aloh..dh merepek byk...
ni nak buang ke xnak nii??

Why Do I Love Myself So Much...

This, people..attention please...is my 70th or 71 (nggak pasti) post...and...out off many posts that i have published...i never said about anything else other than myself...ish3..

Apparently..i love myself sooo much that i keep posting things about myself regardless of many things that happen around me...hmm..sapiah owh sapiah...

And why...owh why..knapa la sng..i don't have any idea to post about anything else other than myself...

Even when the idea strucks me...and i came to the point when i want to publish a new post about things that just happened(slaen dr yg menimpa dr sy okay)..at the end, i published things about myself jgk..

Sapiah loves herself soo much...that...is the conclusion..sekian, trma kaseh..

Late...

Sy bgn super lambat ari nii..blom gosok baju, n blom mandi..waaa...
naseb baek ada org kol..
kalo x, msti dh terlps klas n tdo dgn nyenyak lg...
hmmm, tp sy ttp bahagia...hahaha...

Xda tajuk...

Sy penin...
Sy serabut...
Jiwa kacao..
Hati gelisah...
X tenang...
Ya Allah, bantulah hambamu ini...

hmm..serabai...

Nombor 5...

MY TOP 5 MOST FAVOURITE FOOD
Laksa, mee kari, laksam, soto, n roti arab..suma yg mak wat, dr sdr x pandai..hehe..

5 THINGS I LOVE DOING
Denga lagu2 hitz terbaru, mendownload suma bnda psl super junior, menjoyah, medescribe org laen n memperkotak katikkan hdp org sekeliling..hoho..lawak ja, berkawan laa..

5 THINGS I LOVE DOING WHEN I’M EMO
Mendiamkan diri, merajuk x tentu psl, carik gadoh dgn org laen, menghempas pintu n berguling atas katil.

5 THINGS I LOVE DOING WHEN I’M HAPPY
Berckp x henti2, makan2, senyum mcm kambing kat suma org even org x dikenali, menggedik bersama adek2 n kwn2, carik lagu baru yg sedap denga...

5 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART
Berjoyah bersama sy, share interests yg sama, memujuk di kala sy sdeh, belanja sy n bebaek2 dgn org2 yg sy syg(tp jgn melampau2..hehe..)

5 THINGS I WISH TO HAPPEN
Dpt bina hospital sdr, berbelanja sepuas n seska ati utk family, menjadik lbeh kaya dr donald trump or bill gate, mempunyai kepandaian n genius mcm einstein, ada rangkaian hotel mcm hilton...ish2..suma dunia, mengucap2..

5 RIDICULOUS THINGS I WISH I CAN DO BEFORE I DIE
Setakat ni suma yg sy nak buat, logik dek akal...xda plak yg merapu2..

MY TOP 5 MOST ADDICTED SONG
Take A Bow (Rihanna), Burnin' Up (Jonas Brothers), Hot n Cold (Katy Perry), Crush(David Archuletta), Hurt (Christina Aguilera)

5 PERSON I WISH TO TAG
Dr Ika, Ir Faiz, Dr Hana, Dr. Izan, Dr Kay..